Just to make things clear

I am beginning to wonder if I should be thankful that Boy dumped me. I am beginning to believe that I deserve more. Boy lived at his parents (this does not necessarily mean that he is a loser, but it is one of the things I would like to change about him). He does not have a part time job so he is completely dependant on his folks. This also means that I was the one who always called, since I work at the same time as I study and earn my own money. I even was the one who called when hebroke up with me. He does not know what he wants to do with his life. If it was up to him, he would sit in his room and play computer games all day in his underwear. I had to drag him out so we would do other things. It was pretty much I that took the initiative to sex. It does not bother me, but when he can go three days without wanting to do it, I cannot help but getting insecure. Did I mention that he did not give me a birthday gift this year? He gave me a birthday and x-mast gift which was a meal he made himself with the great help of his father. Man… I really should have seen the break-up coming. How could I be so stupid? Despite all this, I still love him. It is not a reasonable thing to do, but I do not really control it either.

~ by Mandy on June 3, 2008.