Trouble sleeping
I have just been dumped. Yesterday in fact. It was not as bad as the last time, only a little worse. I should have seen it coming since we had this long distance relationship, which never work out. We should have learned from others’ experiences, but no. We just HAD to go through all that pain ourselves. It is about 5 in the morning and I can’t sleep. You know when you lie awake and just try not to think about all you have been through? Well… this blog is made for those moments.
We had been together for almost two years. It was nice. We were good together. We were friends from high-school, in love by the end of the second year and now, we live in different places. It has been hard, but I managed. He didn’t. He wanted to spend more time with me and he didn’t have the strength to try to visit me more often, so he dumped me (logical…). Fair enough, I can’t force him to stay. It’s pretty clear that he doesn’t love me anymore.
My rule when it comes to ex boyfriends, is that we don’t talk. I do not see the point of casual chatting when I am still in love and he is not. That is just painful. I’m not bitter or anything. I have to get over it. I know I don’t need a boy to be the one I am. I know that I have done everything I could to keep him. It still didn’t work out. Doesn’t matter. I forget and pass on to something new. In order to do that, I have to stop having contact with him.
your post… is my story –only i didn’t find the strength to write it like you. can’t sleep –but it wasn’t just yesterday. it was the 8th/9th of the previous month –not that that day is a fact i’d love to remember. still love him, but i guess he stopped feeling the same about me. i even question if it was real. it was so good and beautiful but now it all seems to be in question. he cheated on me. he gave up on me. but dont get me wrong. i knew him as a good guy. everybody did. i dont know what happened. im sorry about the ranting. i guess im just looking for someone who would seem to understand more clearly…
I am really sorry. I know that anything I say will sound like a cliche. That is the way I am feeling when people try to comfort me. Don’t worry about the ranting. I think we have to go through it to be able to build our self up again. If you feel like talking, you know where to find me.